If I had the cord to my camera I would have taken my camera out on a road sign expedition. But I don't know where the cord is and I don't want to buy a new one - not this month - not next - (I don't get paid again until the end of September - and my husband is a state employee and they have 3 furlough days a month [equaling about a 20% pay cut]). I also know I will find the cord as soon as I get a new one. We will see.
But as I thought about it - I decided to go with just one image.
The Bible. It is what I go to daily for DIRECTION, courage and strength. Not to mention sanity.
I have struggled with depression for my whole life. Seeing the world as it is, growing up by myself and genetics made a lovely depression stew for me.
I have self medicated and taken prescribed pharmaceuticals - but what works the very best for me, with zero side effects, has been a dedicated time with God in His Word on a daily basis.
The Word is living and active, able to divide soul and spirit and joint and marrow. Not to mention supernatural.
I could not put one foot in front of the other in any organized way without DIRECTION from The Bible.
I know that this makes me seem like a study in contradictions - but I do love the Coens, I do love The Big Lebowski, I don't mind hearing F bombs in certain situations, I did take drugs as a teen, I am liberal in many ways, I will buy a drink or two at a bar if my kids are playing music there AND I love Jesus, the Ancient of Days and the Bible.
Do not judge and hate God because of me.
I am who I am. (Somewhat like Popeye - without the heroics). I am trying to find my way in the world.
I get my DIRECTION from the Bible. But I still get lost.
Sheesh.
Well... I'm glad you don't eat canned spinach! That stuff is just nasty. Fresh spinach is good.
ReplyDeleteBesides, then I'd be like Whimpy or the Jeep. And I won't pay you Tuesday.
Okay, well you can see what direction my brain wants to go... down the grocery aisle. Sheeesh is right!
This post is very you. Nice.
have you ever bought shares in trowbridge helicopters?
ReplyDeleteananda - i can't pay you on tuesday either - at least not until october!
ReplyDeletesilly billy - first of all, i have no money for investing. i thought i explained that.
ReplyDeletesecond of all, i am a rather literal translationalist and i don't have the brain power to pick anything apart letter by letter, especially Genesis.
and a good day to you sir.
BTW I read in the paper that some Russian blew up Twitter - momentarily - so maybe our problems of yesterday had something to do with that.
I think I hear Al Stewart singing....
ReplyDeleteananda - i have no idea why - sorry for being so dense ;-(
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely and heartfelt post. I think you found a direction that works for you and that is a gift no matter how you slice it.
ReplyDeletecrazy4... Al Stewart does a song called The Sirens of Titan. :) There is nothing dense in your head!
ReplyDeleteWe all have flaws, but I can see from this post that you are headed in the right direction.
ReplyDeleteUg..ug..ug..ug..ug.
My Popeye impression loses something on the internet, but in real life it is very impressive.
Thanks for sharing your story. Wherever you get direction from is personal to each one of us. I do hope you find the cord for your camera.
ReplyDeleteAnanda - Does that mean i am a mush brain?
ReplyDeletecube - i think i can almost hear popeye. i believe you about it being impressive in person!
AlienCG - You are welcome and thank you! I sure hope to find the cord, too!
laura - i missed you - sorry! thank you my sweet friend - and did i hear something about pie (no matter how you slice it - hardy har har)?
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